Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Goodbye, Ellie Belly

This is going to be a difficult post.  Remember the puppy that I complained about having in our house because it was supposed to be my daughter's but I was the one taking care of it?  Well, she became my dog and despite being a bad dog I have never loved a dog so much in my life.  She just turned 18 months old.

She chewed up Everything she could get to.  She destroyed one of our chairs, countless shoes, many of William's toys, and anything else that seemed chewable to her.  She escaped from the house on many occasions and got into multiple neighbor's trash.  She domineered over our beagle, who completely gave up ever having a dog toy of her own.

But she would curl up in my lap and tilt her head just so.  She was a dachshund/cocker spaniel mix so was little, but I think she would have killed anyone who tried to do anything to any member of our family.  A few days ago when I was trying to get our beagle, Carly, to come to me, she looked at me, ran to Carly, chomped onto her ear and tried to drag her to me.  She was too smart for her own good.  She could jump up until her eyes were level with mine and was the fastest dog I have ever seen. She was soft and loved to have her belly scratched.  She loved to lick my nose.  I loved her.

On Sunday before church she made one of her escapes and ran right into the path of a van.  I saw the whole thing.  And there was nothing I could do.  She tried to pick up her head once and then she was dead.  The couple was so apologetic, but it wasn't their fault.  She just ran right in front of them.  I hugged the woman, who was horrified, and sent them on their way.  And then I wrapped up my Ellie in a towel and sat on the porch holding her and sobbing for about an hour.  A local funeral home took her to be cremated and the men who met me there held me while I pet and said goodbye to her.  My son sat on my lap and held me for hours while we both cried. He loved her, too.

I miss my bad dog.  I haven't been in this big of a funk about losing a pet in years and years.  Carly is confused and alternates between sniffing around for Ellie and looking at me like I can explain where Ellie went.  She wont leave my side.  She still won't go near the pet toys.  They were never hers.

I loved you so much, little Ellie.  Wait for me across the bridge.  I can't wait to scratch your belly again.


17 comments:

Crystal Lynn Fiorito said...

I am really so very sorry.

Nessa said...

aww so sorry.

kassidy's notes said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your dog. I've lost a lot of dogs in my life and each time I cry. I still remember them. I'm sure Ellie is in a great place now.

Johanna said...

It hurts so much to lose our dear pets. Hard enough when they go through old age but harder still when they are suddenly ripped from you in such a way. I have lost 2 cats on the road in front of our house.
Big Huge Hugs

faith76 said...

Sorry to read about your loss x

Leah x

Chrissy said...

I am so sorry! Words can not describe what we go through when we lose a loved pet...just know you and your family are in my thoughts, she will be there waiting for you! xxx

MariaS said...

Oh Erin! I am so so sorry... I really don't know what to say. I am sobbing for you and your puppy. I am so so sorry. {{{Hugs}}}

A MilShelb Mom said...

Oh my goodness. I am in tears. I am so so so sorry. I will say that I will always be forever grateful for the moments I have with my 2 fur babies. You are blessed that she blessed your life so much.
~Maggie

Daddy Knows Less said...

So sorry. :-( I'd be lost without my Luna. Sending strength and prayers.

Susie Kline said...

I am so so so sorry for your loss. Losing a pet hurts. It really really hurts.

Katiebee said...

awwww erin, i'm so very sorry~

hugs,

katie

Darn Yarn Needles and Thread said...

Sorry for the loss. It's amazing how much these little creatures mean to our lives. They really are a part of your pack.

Lana said...

Hugs to you. They really can get right into your heart with their big eyes and unconditional love. So sorry you lost your Ellie.

Amber said...

I'm so sorry.

Camilleta said...

I am so sorry!! I know how hard it is to lose a pet. =(

Lucy's Soup Can said...

I cried when I read this post. I'm glad to hear you are continuing with your blog. Best of luck to you.

Joeshico said...

So sorry to hear about Ellie Belly. I came very close to seeing my Yorkie do the same last week. Thankfully the car slammed on the breaks. It is so sad to see one's pet's life end that way.

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