I've had a difficult day. It's left me deflated. And tired.
Every once in a while I am reminded by someone,
whether by that certain glance or the quick look away,
by the gossip mill, which MEANS well, you know
however it happens
that people haven't forgotten that I did something Bad.
I.Got.In.Trouble.
And I shouldn't forget it, little Missy!
I am a woman who is digging her fingernails into the side of the mountain,
trying to climb back to the top
who has cried from the stress and strain of it
who, at one time, thought about giving up
but got braver and started to climb again
and who occasionally thinks I might see the summit
And then just like in a James Bond film
someone comes along and cuts my ropes.
And I fall a little, but never as far as I did the last time.
You see, I've been developing mental muscles from all of that climbing.
I didn't cry this time, which is great progress.
I thought about what I know of myself Now
Not then, when everything fell apart.
That My Savior Tore The Veil
That he hung on the cross and took away all sin from all times
That he sacrificed himself so that all people could experience
REDEMPTION
FORGIVENESS
HEAVENLY LOVE
and my favorite
AMAZING GRACE
SO to all of the haters,
remember what your preacher taught you last Sunday
(I know a lot of you go to church!
This is a pretty small town after all)
And regardless of ropes being cut and crampons being removed
even though this climb is taking a Long Time
I plan to reach the summit
I have God as my mountaineer.
All photos from We Heart It and Flickr
26 comments:
I don't know the specifics of what you are going through but I do know a bit about people hating on you. The only thing I took from it was that as long as you are happy with you, that's all that matters. Let the haters lie.
Your blog is a beauty btw, love the look.
I don't know exactly what's going on... but it sure seems you have learned a great deal from it and are still learning. Good for you for turning it into something positive and growing from even the bad experiences!
~Maggie
Amen sister! I'll be praying that you reach the top of your mountain.
You'll make it. Just keep climbing and all of a sudden you will realize you have reached the top.
Keep on climbing! You're doing well :)
Have you ever read "Hinds Feet for High Places"? I think you might like it and get very encouraged.
xxx
those are great pictures.... I love the poem. When you reach the summit I'm sure God will say "Well done, my good servant"...
LOVE the photos! Could you remind me of who you found me through?
Don't let them get into you. We are all human and we are bound to commit mistakes.
Amazing pictures!
i guess everyone of us face the emotional mountain climbing phase at one point or the other...
This is very inspiring... thanks fro sharing with us..:)
Ruth
Underneath His Wrapping
Did you take these picture? they are lovely. :) Can you take a picture of your garden? I'm following you now. Thanks for visiting my blog, have a happy saturday :)
xo,
Gwen
http://psycheslab.blogspot.com
Keep on climbing, as you say you can only get stronger. I am afraid I am not religious (I lean towards Buddhism as my thing) but shouldn't those people that go to church forgive and support you? Take care, have a good weekend and treat yuorself to nice things. x
Thanks for the comment on Lil' Luna. I love your blog. I'm now a follower. Those pic are AMAZING!
Oh Erin....I wish I could hug you right now. I understand what you are feeling. I have been put through that climb myself a time or two. But you definitely have your sight on the right path/goal! Hold your head high girl! Stand proud and tall. Let no one steal your joy!
Beautiful post. I hope that the rest of this weekend can bring you peace and happiness.
Thanks so much for stopping by my blog. I look forward to getting to know you!
Stephanie
http://www.dirtandlace.com
Good luck with your struggle and recovery. I hope you don't feel too alone. And I like your shout out to all the "Christian" haters out there. That hypocrisy really burns me up!
This is beautifully written. And my dear new blogger friend (I'm now following you) , I will walk with you if you need me to.
Be blessed and always look UP.
Weezer
Thanks for stopping by and becoming a follower. I am now a follower of yours. I like this post. The pictures fit well into your writing.
Hi Erin, Thanks for stopping by and following my blog. So glad you did so that I could find and follow you! I hope you have a great day after the post that you wrote. I had a tearful one at the beginning, but God has shown me the light this afternoon! Bye for now, Roz @ La Bella Vita!
You're welcome and thank YOU for the nice comments as well :) I sure do wish I knew what Friday Follows it was!
If you are happy, you shouldn't woory about what others think. :)
...and your words are just so beautiful...!!
I love that you are so brave and determined and keep on climbing - and don't let yourself be discouraged!
So go on - you'll make it!! I know!!
Big hugs - Claudia
following you back. thanks for visiting my site =) Enjoy your weekend!
Wow very inspirational!
What a wonderful use of photo imagages and poetic language...I can relate with how challenging that mental climb uphill can be...
I wish the people you know would be more willing to forgive. It's important to forgive. We all make mistakes.
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