I know I haven't talked about this much, but one day I just woke up and "POOF" I felt better. My mind was quiet. I looked around at my life and I was okay with it. My laid back hippie vibe suddenly returned. And I have no idea why or what happened - well, except for years of therapy and trying to get my psyche to cooperate - but there it was.
I won't tell you that every day is a bowl full of cherries. I still have my moments, still have self doubt, but it just sort of goes away. Dissipates away into the wind.
So then I think about the great writers throughout history, and how the majority of the real legends were total headcases. How their angst and illness fed their writing - I understand! I have to tell you that since I've been happier I've suffered for deep writing material. I guess I'll have to be shallow for a while as I'm enjoying my newly found bliss.
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Erin, this sounds wonderful. I have suffered from depression on and off, so those pooof times are so important. I am so glad you are feeling better and better days ahead.your photos are beautiful.
I'm glad you are in a better place though I totally agree that feeling angsty and depressed seems to inspire creative writing easier then happiness does!
Good writing material or not, enjoy your happy time!
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Ah, the glass is MORE than half full!
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Lois
I'm so glad you are feeling better. Those are lovely photos! I say yes, enjoy the lighter side of life for as long as you like.
I tell my students that most writers were/are completely batty. This is right after I tell them that I'm a writer. It starts the schoolyear off on an interesting note ...
But seriously, it's really kind of true. I'm glad that you're feeling better and hoping that sooner or later that translates into your writing.
Happiness, like sadness, is a great motivator :-)
I always feel like I write better when life is difficult. When everything goes well, it's much harder for me to think of things to write about! But people do like to read about good things too :) I really am glad that you are doing well!
What a wonderful realization! I hope that state of contentment goes on and on.
Reading this makes me very happy. I'm so glad you're feeling better. xoxo
Glad to hear you are feeling better! I am glad I stopped by today.
Thanks for stopping by Mom is the Only Girl and thus causing me to stop by today to read this! Your pics are so calming, and I'm happy you're in a 'place' after "poof"! Imagine if there was just the "poof"! Seriously, it's OK to have shallow for a while if it's happy!
i wonder sometimes why we want to read about the struggle...unless of course we are struggling and it helps to know we are not alone.
and i suppose, that in being content we are not out seeking so much about what to do because we have found it (so to speak)...
but...content is a wonderful thing and i celebrate it with you.
It's always so nice to be free from the drama, isn't it? I hope your peace lasts forever and triggers new and different waves of creativity.
been there too! keep your head high and your eyes on the bright side of life girl!
you will be okay!
hugs
lika
Glad to hear you are feeling better. Life gets better as you get older.
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And it looks like a good place to be. Enjoy.
Writing is definitely emotionally driven for me. Oh how I wish I could write what I'm REALLY feeling sometimes! LOL!
Glad I dropped by today! Enjoy your day.
I can empathize. I've struggled with depression since time out of mind and those periods of calm are *so* surreal. It's almost like the colors are distorted. As a creative writing focused English major, I actually *feared*, to some extent, recovering from depression, or the calm periods, because of the toll it takes on writing. Now, having been in a healthy place for about a year now, I'm adjusted and can say earnestly that this calm is wonderful and certainly changed my "voice" but hasn't quieted it. With time, your voice will re-emerge with vibrancy and life.
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